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assalamualaikum blog ku yg tercinta. are u doing well? yeah. lama nda buka since i started my sch life. eh? sch eh? a'ah. sch la sangat. aha. my time has been stole by some sch tasks tho. there's no time for sighing :(

almost 2 months i'd become a student. FORM 6 student actually. at first it's hard for me to get along. yeah. i dont have much friend. yeah much. not a lot. but days passing by, i started getting the flow of form 6 environment. sch uniform? klu yg itu, mmg sda biasa pun. haha XD i mean, i accept a lot of things and started to open up my mind that study in form six doesn't mean u one of the 'tercicir' student that can't make to any university or matriculation college. yeah. i have to admit that some ppl looked down on form 6; "GOING TO THE UNIVERSITY OR ANY COLLEGE IS ONLY WAY U CAN SUCCESS IN LIFE." "FORM 6? SERIOUSLY. IT'S USELESS. PLUS, U JUST WASTE YOUR TIME." "FORM 6? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!"

everybody has their own future. different is the way they create, the way they lead themselves to become a 'PERSON'. a 'SOMEBODY'. ppl, if u think that going to some universities/colleges promising u brighter future. then, why the government serve some places for form 6 student to pursue their study in degree level? wake up la MALAYSIAN. as long as u have the will to study. anywhere u can succeed (in sya Allah).

yes. here, i have my 'pendirian' i'll keep my feet on form 6.

im writing this entry bcoz few days ago, my friends told me i was listed for the 2nd intake at the UMS and they told me to accept the offer. forcing me actually. haha. thx friends. then the other day, a FRIEND named _____________ call me. she said this:

SHE : "Wawa. masuk la kau sini. masih sempat bh ne. smlm pun ada juga yg baru masuk. masih sempat. cepat la kau pack barang mue."

ME : "Haha. nda apa la. lagipun aku tawar hati sda mau trima tawaran. stay f6 ja."

SHE : "Ui wa. apa lg kau mau tolak. masa depan mue bh ne. and blablablabla."

that time. i feel like; what? so u're saying that, i don't have future if i stay in form 6?

ppl. once again, tell your mind to open up. doesnt mean u're college or university student u're good. yeah. don't look down on ALLAH's rezeki. for sure, everyone deserves success. bcos. REZEKI ALLAH ADA DI MANA2. TINGGAL KAU CARI (usaha) SEJA. KAN? 

peace V^.^
no hate ppl. just some mind opening words from me. chill your days. baii

menangis seja aku tau.

assalamualaikum. 
uhu. smlm aku nangis. masa skype sama umi. bodoh aite? i don't know why the fuq i cry. umi baru tanya pasal f6 tuh. aku trus nangis like non-stop.

then. umi calm me down. told me not to cry. lepastuh aku stop kejap. umi nasihat itu ini. mmg kena brainwash. umi ckp ne la kelemahan aku. menangis. uuu. minta aku janji klu ada apa2 lepasne. jgn nangis. all i need to do is. 

"breathe and talk slowly."

umi ckp lg. cemana klu aku kawen nti? hahahahahaha. fine. makin aku nangis. uhu. hari ne aku pigi ppd. aku yakin bh sda. klu sekadar aku masuk matrik/asasi just bcoz to make the others proud. i'll be end up nothing. so. aku sentiasa berdoa utk yg terbaik. aku janji aku struggle cemana aku struggle dulu atau lebih. i'd set my achievement point. 

kepada kawan2 aku yg akan sambung belajar d'negeri kita/negeri org/negara org. aku nda akan lupa kamu. aku harap kita semua sama2 berjaya :)

baii

aku boleh.

assalamualaikum. 

aku sda siap tulis surat utk pertukaran program tuh. serious. aku mcm merapu repek dlm surat tuh. esok aku mau pigi pejabat. tpi aku teda kwn. faeza sma sam. sekolah sda drg. jdi aku pigi sendiri.

masa aku kol unimas tdi. dea ckp. tulis ja surat utk dekan. sertakan salinan slip spm, i/c sama surat tawaran. tpi kan. dari tdi aku keluar masuk dri website unimas tuh. aku print jg sda smua borang2nya. nda nampak pun surat tawaran. lg satu. aku blum ready mau isi online. aduii. aku isi borang manual pun mabuk sda. aha.

mudah2an dpt la tukar program tuh. aku btl2 mau usahakan sampai dpt tukar. tdi aku t'pikir jg. blh ka jmpa dekan awal2? sbb aku takut. nti klu aku masuk sana, trus nda dpt sda tukar. cemana la? aku rancang begini. klu mmg nda dpt tukar. aku pilih matrik ja la. takut jg aku. nti jdi

"yg dikejar x dpt, yg dikendong berciciran."

risiko besar tuh klu aku masuk sana. sbb daftar d'sana 27. matrik daftar 21. tpi kan. aku tgk. jalan paling selamat adalah matrik. tpi. uhu. ndatau la. hati aku ckp lain :(

abah.

assalamualaikum. hi. hari ne aku post dua kali. mm. kali ne aku mau cerita psl abah. yaa. abah. abah mmg sayang aku. ya laa. abah mana yg nda sayang anak. sayang abah sama aku kan. baaaanyaaaak. ne aku mau cerita. psl sambung belajar dan abah.

abah kan. abah mmg ndamau jauh sama aku. betul. harituh aku apply mesir tuh. abah sda reject awal2. walaupun surat tawaran sda d'pos. walaupun pihak medicmesir tuh sda 'menuntut' bayaran. abah tetap reject. alasan abah sbb jauh. abah nda bagitau aku secara langsung yg abah ndamau aku pigi sana. tpi abah bagitau umi. abah mmg ndamau aku jauh dari dea. abah sedih. 

hari ne. bila abah tau aku dpt d'sarawak. abah pun risau. abah kol pembantu pengarah kementerian pelajaran (whatever. i don't even know what they called.) abah tanya. klu aku blh tukar pigi UMS. yg d'kk tuh. iya. d'kk. mau tuh mau. tpi bila aku fikir blk. susah lg kan. aku kasi kusut fikiran abah.

abah minta tolong dgn sepa ja yg dea kenal. supaya aku blh masuk sana. alasan abah kali ne. 

"klu wawa belajar sana, hujung minggu kami blh pigi sana."

"klu wawa pigi sarawak, bah?"

"jauh bh tuh. mau jln darat pun jauh. klu kk dekat."

"..."

"ums tuh banyak. sandakan pun buka sda kan d'bt10."

"..............."

see? mcm klu blh kan. biarla aku d'sandakan. asal nda jauh dari abah. sedih. 

k

jyeah. jodoh aku dgn SARAWAK :')

ASSALAMUALAIKUM. *saja font besar2* 
hari ne keluar sda keputusan upu. secara rasminya aku dpt UNIMAS. kos apa? asasi. asasi sains. sains apa? fizikal. i was like 
WHAT?! FIZIKAL?! DEHECK. mood aku celaru. tahan perasaan. jyeah. aku bersyukur dpt tawaran upu. bersyukur sangat2. then aku nangis. haha. bodoh? yaa. i know. org nangis sbb nda dpt. aku nangis sbb dpt. nangis sedih ok. bkn psl terharu. sedih. aku ingat aku dpt sains hayat. aku btl2 mau dpt tuh. uhu. aku nda bersyukur ka ne? 

but then. aku ada tanya kak niza. psl permohonan utk tukar kos. (fizikal -> hayat)
guess what? mmg BOLEH! contact ja pejabat sana. cuma mgkin permohonan kli ne susa. sbb mgkin ada smpai seribu org. apa2 pun. insyaAllah. esok aku mau kontek tuh pengurusan unimas. mudah2an dpt. amin.